I went to Aviles Comic Con last weekend and I'm under a severe artist block right now. I feel really stupid having the block, but need to put some order in my mind before start drawing again. I did this after six attempts (six, for god's sake, like love letter writers behave in the movies) for a friend's B-day. That means I pushed myself to finish it over and over again. At least she was so happy and excited about the pic.

I like the face looking like a mask, but I think the whole thing is not good at all. In fact I don't think I'm doing good stuff this year. Maybe I won't be doing anything worthy in a while, maybe years. But I have to go on. This is no self-pity, the typical "I'm not a good artist, so c'mon go and praise me a little" speech. I have a problem. I'm begginning to behave like a photo bitch. I mean, I need a lot of references to draw the most simple thing and that's not the point I want to reach. I'm getting stuck with realism and also loosing the ability to create from a free base.

For example, this is a version of a movie poster you might have seen before, and that can be easily found via google. So what's the point in doing this picture? it's for a friend, but what else? I don't know if I'm making myself clear with this messy explanation. Problem is, I do versions of photographs, so I draw nice material because the photo was cool already. I study art, and aim to work in art related environments. I'll be glad if you like my stuff, I like making people happy. But that doesn't stop me being worried because at the core of my soul I know there's something wrong.

Truth is, I learn really slow. And I spend a lot of time, a lot, watching what other people do. DA for example was the last thing I needed in my life. I'd rather watch the wonderful material here than doing my own. I know must care only about my own development and understand that everyone here follows a private path with its own way of learning. So age, country, or whatever doesn't matter at all with skills or talent. And other people's age, skills, whatever, are even less related with mine though knowing it is not the same as assuming it. Need some light and run out of lightbulbs